The Blood Of Love Welled Up In My Heart With A Slow Pain*
“Sometimes, when I go to bed at night, I lie awake feeling guilty.”
“About what?”
“Just about things I did or said that day. Ways I wasn’t nice. Especially to you. I love you but sometimes I say jerky things. I don’t know why, I just feel mean.”
“When you love someone more than anything, and they love you back, part of what that means is you can hurt them more than anyone, too. When you hurt me, I only feel bad for a short time and then I remember it hurts so badly because we love each other so much. Want to know something else?”
“What?”
“Sometimes I lie awake at night and feel guilty about the same thing.”
*The title is a quote from one of Sylvia Plath’s journals. She also wrote “O love, how did you get here? O embryo” and I am completely convinced that she’d have been the only mom in the playgroup that really got me.
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I never really understood my Mom until I was an adult. She was kinda complex that way. But gosh how I loved that woman once I did figure her out…she was still complex but at least I got it, lol.
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/ Jun 26 2010
True. That. The only two things that keep from sleeping, (besides the kids of course), money trouble, and GUILT.
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/ Jun 26 2010
This is so true. I love it.
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/ Jun 26 2010
there is a spanish saying that reflects this really well, unfortunately it doesn’t translate too well, so I’m gonna keep it in spanish
“cuando hay confianza da asco”
(google translate claims it’s something like “where there is trust it gets disgusting”)
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angelica -
Yes. It makes perfect sense and is exactly right. I need a tattoo of it, STAT.
Michelle @ Mommy Loves Stilettos -
I felt the same way growing up so I love that she expresses it better than I ever could.
britt -
mine are money trouble, guilt, and IBS.
Jenn -
Once you get it, you can judge it on a whole new level! Hooray for more evolved judgment! Haha.